I couldn't access my account on another journal so for now this goes here... I have this thing for butchering songs, mostly trying to make my own english lyrics for songs in other languages just for fun or out of boredom, but they can stand alone as sort-of-poems... So here is one from SNSD called Genie (can't say i like them but some of their songs are ok):

Just tell me what you want
'Cause I'll do just anything for you
Tell me what you want
Whatever you need I'll take care for you
Boy just ask
Whatever you say will be
'Cause I'm your genie, yeah
Wish from your genie yeah

You'll never want for anything
'Cause I will give you everything
I'll find a way, I'll make it work
Believe me
Everything with me is possible
There's nothing unattainable
When there's magic everytime you touch me babe

Chorus:
If it's my love you want, My heart I'll give to you boy
You'll have all of me, I'll never leave so
Wish away my love, I'll make it real and
Your dreams will come true
If you say what you want
Let me know what you need
Give you all that you want
Give you all that I've got

So tell me what you want
'Cause nothing is out of reach if you believe in me
My powers of love extend beyond infinity
Set me free I will be yours for eternity
Keep you right next to me

All the treasures they won't mean a thing
When you tell me you will be my king
Give you all the riches of this world for sure babe
You're my shining knight, my daring prince
If you save me I will grant your wish
I'll be your girl, I'll be your biggest fan

*repeat chorus

I'm your genie, never leave you, give you what you want
I'm your genie, be your girl 'til the end
I'm your genie, you're the only master in my heart
I'm your genie, I belong to you yeah


NOTE: this is just for kicks, but if people like it i might consider posting the others i've finished and the stuff i will be working on in the future......

I woke up and it was night
Or so I thought
Because the dark surrounded me
And fog was in the air still
Then I heard the bitter drops
Of rain against my window pane
And I understood the cold upon my skin
The angry storm that woke me
Unmerciful and unkind
Was here to stay
The howling winds
Low-hanging clouds
A whole morning in the gray
Of falling tears and flooded streets
I've never liked the rain that much
And thunderstorms less so
I could never understand
Who's feeling who
Are the heavens crying for me?
Or am I crying for you?

we all just float along
in this great big ocean
that we call the world
just follow the crowd
and go with the flow
or get left behind
to live your life alone
there's no getting through it
coasting on your own
i was lucky enough to find you
and to have your hand to hold
i've got nothing to say
nothing to prove
all that matters now is i have you
there's no reason to stay
no reason to move
wherever you are
that's where i am too
it's a cruel time
when you live a lie
but i'm not worried about it
there's no need to hide
the light i've buried deep inside
now that you are mine

love is a sunflower
with such devotion
unparalleled admiration
for its lover, the sun
that it never looks away
following the light
across the sky
and bows its head
only at night
obsession

love is a rose
vibrant and colorful
the classic romance
enticingly charming
but with thorns that cut deep
and leaves for sharp teeth
so lovely to look at
but try to get near and touch
you shall pay the price
deceit

love is a weed
unwanted in a beautiful garden
troublesome and annoying
competitive and greedy for attention
grows where its not supposed to
pull it out
it grows back again
such persistence
even at the face of rejection
suffering

love is bamboo
you give it everything
nurture it well
yet nothing grows
silent for such a long time
even as you wait, patiently
and then when you've given up hope
it grows tall, strong and proud
a moment too late
pride

looking through everything
as if looking through glass
gazing so far away
to a time yet to pass

reaching for everything
as if reaching for stars
moving so fast that i've
opened up all my scars

i looked around to see
all that i'll ever be
can only be achieved
if i let go of me

so i open my hand
let my heart fall slowly
left my spirit soaring
set my mind flying free

this is the only way
risks that i have to take
will be worth the vision
the world that i can make

finding what i have missed
as if finding treasure
keeping this secret is
overwhelming pressure

hearing what i have heard
the voice through the silence
something i never thought
i'd find in my essence

must not let anyone
know just what i possess
this is one mortal sin
i never will confess

for if everybody
knew of what i had learned
the world would be chaos
our souls would all be burned

this is the only way
risks that i have to take
will be worth the vision
the world that i can make

every move i see
i hear a flowing melody
every sound i hear
i see a vision so clearly
that fragrant smell
is a touch of silk on skin
that soft caress
is the smell of red roses

when i look at you
i see the world through
synesthetic eyes
all my senses going haywire
hypnotized

dear jelle, mina and sam,

let me get straight to the point. i've decided to transfer. i'm so sorry!sorry!sorry! mian, patawad, forgive me. please don't be sad or mad... i would love to be near you guys everyday but i really think this is for the best...now i have to figure out how to explain this to everyone else. thank you for all your support. really...i appreciate it. the plan is to transfer next year. so for the rest of this year, i'm hoping to enroll in individual courses...maybe cooking, languages... whatever i can find... so i don't waste any more time. as a peace offering, i now present to you my own english version of tvxq's begin.it's not perfect yet... i might change it a bit later. look at the words carefully... this is sort of a mixture of the kind of feeling i get from and fell towards you guys. this is a time of new beginning for me and i'm happy you're all still by my side.

love,
glau

begin

are you hiding in your lies?
i see pain is in your eyes
and there's nothing i can do to help
your tears keep on falling down
like raindrops from up above
while you're kneeling down upon the ground

but don't you lose your smile
'cause you're the reason i'm alive
if you give me time then i can be
what you've always been to me

everyday and night with you
it's like the sunrise is in your eyes
bringin' in a new tomorrow
everyday, everynight, everywhere
you are the truth, my only hope
in this dark and lonely world
be strong, step into my heart and begin

i think maybe you should know
it hurts when i see you go
i don't understand what i did wrong
it pains me to hear you say
that you have to go away
so don't leave me lost just like before

don't keep it all inside
'cause i am here, no need to hide
i don't have a lot but i can give
everything i have in me

everyday and night with you
it's like the blue sky is in your eyes
bringin' peace to all my sorrow
everyday, everynight, everywhere
i'll hold your hand and i will be strong
for you if you need me to
be mine, give your heart and we can begin

all the while, i've waited for someone like you
you're my all, so please give me a chance to prove
that i'm always on your side

everyday, everynight, everywhere
it's like the future is in your eyes
i can drown in you forever
everyday, everynight, everywhere
each breath you take is a minute more
of my joyful evermore
hang on, we will reunite and begin

everyday and night with you
it's like the sunrise is in your eyes
bringin' in a new tomorrow
everyday, everynight, everywhere
you are the truth, my only hope
in this dark and lonely world
be strong, step into my heart and begin

love you guys... hope you like it!!

it's never too early to look behind
the time that passed you by
it's never too late to say you're wrong
and choose to change your mind

'cause look at me now
i'm right here standing still
i couldn't breathe, i couldn't speak until

suddenly you, you came along
suddenly my life started moving on
suddenly i have found the place where i belong

suddenly you, you held me close
suddenly my heart started beating once more
suddenly i have found a love that is my own

everyone wants to be different
everybody wants to fit in
it's a whole world full of misfits
wherever you turn, you just can't win

i want to be unique
but i want to belong
i want to stand out but
not so much that i'm all alone

we all want to be special
just like everybody else
so the end result is really
just society in a whole load of mess

so, i see you like boys
a different one every other day
i tell you you're moving too fast
but you don't really care about what i say

now i hear you like girls
which one is it? please make up your mind
okay, maybe you like both
you're just plowing on forward, leaving everyone behind

i wish i could say
that i've let go of everything
but that's a lie
though it doesn't hurt now
i can't just forget that
you're someone who made me cry

my moods have been up and down
more times than a roller coaster
the world around me is so loud
that i can't hear myself

i want to go my own way
but the circumstance demands i stay
i just want to find my place
and not be just a mask without a face

i'll be over this
i just need to know you're by my side
i wanted to give up
but you touched my heart and changed my mind
now i know what i want
'cause i'm no longer blind
and i can clearly see the light
i've kept inside

everyone's moving forward
the race has left me in a cloud of dust
everyone's on their own side
there's nobody i can trust

i want to be able to
show the world just what i can do
i want to be strong enough
to stand on my own even when life gets too tough

i'll be over this
i just need to know you're by my side
i wanted to give up
but you touched my heart and changed my mind
now i know what i want
'cause i'm no longer blind
and i can clearly see the light
i've kept inside

when the dark kept growing colder
you put your hand on my shoulder
when i was all alone
and all my hope was gone
you stayed beside me all night
while i waited for my rising sun

Note: This is supposed to be lyrics for (my english version of) the song forever love by tvxq/dbsk, but it also stands alone as a poem, inspired by the same song. This is dedicated to my sisters in crime- mina, sam and jelle.

as i hold you in my arms i get overwhelmed
you're in my mind, in your heart is my home
these are the days i feel like i am lost and i can't see
then you come, hold out your hand and rescue me

i hope you tell me that this time you're here to stay
'cause i can't let you go again
it doesn't matter much to me, what they say
we'll keep each other strong, we'll run together you and i
all the pain and strife will heal in time

so you should know you're not alone
i'll keep you close
we'll rise above our pain and all our sorrow
when you're in doubt remember hold my hand and pray
fill my lonely soul
forever love

now come with me
we'll face the world along the way
our future's bright
like shining starry skies
when i'm with you,
there's no place else that i would rather be
look in my eyes and know that i will never leave

if i tell myself that i'm fine when i'm alone
girl that's a lie 'cause when you're gone
there's no reason left to go on living
i feel your lips on mine and darling i just melt inside
you're the wings that make my spirit fly

so you should know you're not alone
i'll never go
we're moving on to reach for our tomorrow
don't hesitate to show the world our love and say
keep on holding on believe in love
you're the only love forever

no matter the time or place i'll be there
hold on i will lift you when you're feeling down
leave your hesitations right outside the door
go on take my hand, we'll be on our way
give your heart to me, like i did with you

so you should know you're not alone
i'll give you hope
there's no one else but you who drives me crazy
when i'm in doubt you let me hold your hand and say
i'll be only yours believe in love

so you should know you're not alone
i'll keep you close
we'll rise above our pain and all our sorrow
when you're in doubt remember hold my hand and pray
fill my lonely soul until the end
you're the only love forever

twenty years worth of tears
i bottled it up and lived behind my pains and fears
the world never felt right
how can i explain?

twenty years in my eyes
you'll see all my sins and all my lies
all this time i knew
there was something wrong inside

but what could i do?
when i myself didn't have a clue
what's going on, why do i feel so wrong?
something's messing up my world

i try to figure it out
just to find out
it was me all along
i never belonged

it was all an act
it was all just for show
now i second guess everything
that i've ever known

i didn't realize how much i missed you
until we were standing face to face again
i saw the look on you face and only then
did i really feel how lonely i have been

but i guess it's the price to pay
to find myself i have to let you know
i may never get a hold of me
if my hand and heart refuse to let you go

it's a consequence, it's a sacrifice
but i hope you see the tearfall from my eyes
while i'm far away, feeling empty inside
you're the one i want to be right by my side

now that i'm here again
it feels like i never left
we've lost some in the past
but i'm glad you've found a few new friends

i wasn't always there when you needed me
i wished i was but you know why i couldn't leave
some people never change, some people always do
you should know that time won't change what i feel for you

this is not goodbye, not quite a full hello
it's somewhere in between holding on and letting go
people always fall, i guess now's my turn
separation seems to be the longest lesson that i have to learn

somebody always told me
i could be anyone
and that same somebody
said i could do anything
well i was young
i didn't understand
what it truly means
i could have been anyone
i could have done anything
but no one can be everyone
no one can be everything
i thought i had
the whole world in my palm
but when i closed my eyes
i accidentally crushed
what i was holding in my hands

i tried to run
but still i got left behind
i tried to stop time
and i tell you
it's like putting out the sun
i wanted to get away
i wanted to be alone
now i got what i want
why do i feel
like everything in my world
has suddenly gone wrong?
it's a wish run amok
it's a dream i chased
only to let go
it's the life i've always needed
but never got
it's what i deserve
nothing less and nothing more
but that doesn't make things
any easier said than done
life is bittersweet
especially with you gone
still i have to face it
if i want to be someone
i tried to cry
no tears came out
i tried to scream out
all my doubts
i tried to laugh, to smile
even when there was
nothing else, nothing left
to smile about
when it seems like
the clouds may part
at last on my darkened skies
the thunder comes
the lightning strikes
and crushes all my hopes
into the ground
so for now at least
just make believe
with me because i
need your eyes to see
i can't walk around
when i'm half-blind
i know you think i'm strong
but only god is never wrong
and with all my mistakes
i need a helping hand
for moving on
i tried to stand on my own
but i fell down
i tried sitting still
and listening
but i couldn't hear a sound
i tried to be
what i thought i should be
what they needed
what the world wants
but it just isn't me
i'll try to go on from here
to where i don't know
but i'll try not to make
the same mistake
of leaving my heart
on the floor

i'm so glad i took the time
took the time to make it better
no one can heal myself as well as i can
now, even though i'm still as confused as ever
at least some of my wounds have started healing faster

i'm content with where i am
even if it's not where i want to be
you're the only one i allow to be here
for i love you and know you're trustworthy
supporting me throughout this long and painful journey

i wish i had more to give you
than just memories and dreams
but our separation took away the means
for me to show how much i want to be there
right by your side to learn, to laugh, to share, to cry, to care

but right now is not forever
and our situation is sure to change
there is more for us ahead in the future
in this world nothing ever always stays the same
we can only be brought back together, if we each find our own way

hand in hand let's move forward
to reach our warm and radiant destinies
we can endure, though tomorrow looks bleak
believe in the strong bond that has brought us this far
know that wherever we may be, we have the same northern star

to live-is not to breathe or eat
it is for the heart to beat
to set fire to your soul
and make your being whole
to plant firmly your feet in the earth
and go back to the Mother in death as to birth
to let the sea and rain cleanse your mind
and let your emotions free from being bind
to allow the spirit to soar in the air
and hold a piece of freedom's share
to love with everything you have
and get back the affection you deserve to have
to grow within yourself, eternal and forevermore
'til the sun and moon rise and sets no more

damp dirt, grass and wildflowers
i walk naked, barefoot and blindfolded
but i am safe
my steps are slow, unhurried
the path continues down a ledge
there i stand on the edge of a cliff
voices from below urge me to take
one more step, just one more
and i do. birds must feel like this
all breath is sucked from me
chest constricting, muscles tearing
head pounding, throat choking,
heart pounding yet i remain clam
then it ends
a bed of sharp stakes
my blood oozes down the abyss
to where, i don't know
there i lay still
enjoying the strange tranquility

any minute now, death on wings of boredom
the darkness of the sun at midday
entices me to close my eyes
blinding myself to the world
the man up front doesn't make it any better
his stupid voice sings a lullabye
and i feel tired, so damn tired
three quarters of an hour more
blah, blah, blah, my ears are buzzing
droopy eyes, slowing heartbeat
dizzy from the spinning of my head
can't make it, have to make it
so hard, so very, very hard
it's impossible so i surrender
goodbye world